Detaching from Dysfunction

No one warned me that getting out of dysfunction would feel so strange and would be a challenge in and of itself. For the longest time now, I've known that I was bred in dysfunction; I did not know that I was, in fact, dysfunctional myself. I thought being aware meant that I was above the dysfunction, or that I was able to pick up on my own dysfunctional tendencies—not the case, at least not on most days. I found myself surrounded by what most would consider a "normal" and "healthy" life, yet I felt so out of place. No turmoil, no drama, no highs and lows, no emotional rollercoasters. Though I could not put the sentiment into words then, deep down I wasn't sure if what I was experiencing was real. How could life feel so calm and still? I couldn't fathom experiencing life on "easy" mode. The light-heartedness, the simplicity, the ease. In my dysfunction, I just had to find things that were wrong, even when they weren't, because how do I function when everything is well? There's no drama to fight through or recover from.

It was only by the grace of God that I realized I could not continue operating this way. Dysfunction was no longer my daily bread. I did not have to live in fight or flight anymore, and I could let my guard down to receive what was always meant for me—a peaceful life. Not because life is perfect and things don't go wrong, but because I learned that after a while, dysfunction is a choice, and I had learned I didn't have to continue choosing it for my life. I continue to work towards detaching from dysfunctional tendencies.

To put it simply, just know this: if you want to get out of dysfunction, love yourself enough to grow out of it. Learn the lessons, remove yourself from bad spaces, remove your energy and presence from the wrong people, and make NEW choices for your life. Choices that will take you to the future you're destined for. It will feel unfamiliar, uncomfortable, and you'll feel like you don't belong in this peaceful space—but you do. Don't accept a life that is not for you. Be relentless in your pursuit of the life you’re meant for. 💕✨